How did I come to believe in God? People who know me knows that I'm a logical thinker. Is believing in God a logical thing to do?

I was in primary school when I picked up my first science book. I still remember being amazed at how the world operates like a finely-tuned machine. Everything has an explanation. So naturally, I majored in science in school. And it is from there I firmly turned into an atheist.

In my school days I worked pretty hard, like any typical Taiwanese kid. I had built my self-worth solely on my grades and my achievements.

After many year of hard work, I got into one of the top schools in Taiwan. But being first time away from home and letting go of all disciplines, I did terribly in my first year and failed many subjects.I guess for most people this would just be an embarrassment, but to me it was devastating. It was like being told I wasn't worth anything.

My sister had gone to church at this stage. She learned from her friends about prayers. She suggested that I try praying to God about guidance. I took note but I was sure that it was just a wishful thinking.

One particular evening, things got really bad for me. The feeling of failure & isolation was crashing down on me. i was unable to sleep,because I couldn't stop my tears and chest pain (from crying so long). I was hurting all over.

With little strength, I "prayed" this prayer with little enthusiasm : "God, IF you are there, help me!". Suddenly, my chest pain was gone, my tears had stopped. i checked and checked (there's still a scientist in me!), but they were gone. It was so sudden, so I couldn't have just "think" myself into stopping either.

I guess yes maybe many things can be explained. A God who made heaven & earth could made them beautiful and logical. But there are things we can't see either but they sure do exist - as real as physical objects!

After I became a Christian, I found much acceptance and love. I realised that I have an intrinsic value, separate from my achievements and contributions. I left the dark place where it told me I was useless & a failure and come to much hope & joy in God. I'm still learning to find that identity in God, everyday. I guess the love and the grace of God is too wonderful for human to comprehend - I guess it will take a lifetime to learn.